Wow, great comments everyone. Someday I'll tell my story.
I just wanted to add how guilty the bOrg is for creating depression by giving FALSE PROPHECY & FALSE HOPE !!! I feel that the greatest cause of my depression was that 'my loving god' was going to murder billions of people in cold blood if I don't get out and preach. Oh yes, these last days are tough, but the 'New World' is sooooo close and will fix all the problems. Isn't that great? Oh yeah, but God'll kill billions of innocent people so that you can have a pet tiger. Oh, and if you don't preach, pray, attend meeting enough, God will kill you too. But cheer up, the 'paradise' is soooo close, it's only a few days, or maybe a hundred years away. Keep your life 'on hold' waiting for the big A. Any day now... or not. Death, destruction, mayhem, and a pet tiger. And you'll get to see your dead loved ones again, unless they secretly sinned or god just didn't like them, then you won't, but you might. Just hang on a little looonger.
Who wouldn't get depressed if they really are paying close attention to the message.
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